Bac bloggin...

Last wk li jia b'dae,met her at bustop,tot of making her think i angry and wan to bring a qurral juz bcos she is late and let 5 bus 27 leave to make her think i won celebrate wif her,aft tt aft 12am,through plan make her near my hus void deck and present her de cake bt she saw mi as no gd spot to hide and she already noe i nt really angry of de late issue...no fun~

Friday
go nyp find jin wei for his lion dance bt end up late den end le,walk ard nyp n met zhi wei n esmond tok cork awhile and go hm,plan to go punggol marina to drink for li jia celebration and end up plan gt problem,gt qurral wif b'dae gal(standarn thingy b4 her b'dae every yr)end up still go to punggol marina to drink,walk to punngol aft tt to drink coffee...bt de point of this paragraph is de planing is all my fault...

Fault:
I didn plan de celebration as memorable,fun,enjoy,surprise,practical b'dae celebration,i dono isit my plan all ard de same which i don wish to use again,or as wad she said,my sincere is nt dere,i don even care,i juz plan for my own liking...

SERIOUSLY SAYING,i really dono how to plan,sorry that u r 1 of de close fren of mine yet didn gib u a gd celebration,bt when i tot abt de celebration plan i go blank,i suddenly dono wad shuld b de best for u,cos lik wad mi n my other fren b'dae party was nt suitable for u,go out pool,lan,movie,eat.Girls celebration i really didn come across...Planing for other ppl b'dae if plan bu hao dissapoint n make ppl sian.I would lik to highlight 1 point is that I NT LIKING TO DRINK! Its juz for leisure! If on that day wasted ur time and dissapoint u den i appologise,cos i dono wad u wan or mayb wad u wan i cant afford to gib u,2 different world ppl might b a gd thing for being fren bt it dosen't happen it for every issue,i guess i learned my lesson,i finally noe wad my cousin mean,i think i'll stop here cos words can't describe wad my thinkin abt it...its meaningless....

Labels: Not appreciating is de phobia of planing

♥ 4:23 AM

Bac from blogging~~~ this few daes kip come across tis philosophy of wad wee kiat said:What's past is past,u can't keep think back of what's already happened before(memories) but could only use the experience of what already happened before to enhance on what you going to do in future.

Personally i lik de philosophy that he said and i think its quite true so whenever i kip think bac of past i would tot of his words,i guess my past no matter is bad or gd,it already happened and is already past i cant do anything to revert bac de time or incident again...

This few daes i dono y bt juz haf de feeling of my heart is empty,no desire,no dream,no ppl,and NTH!!! So gt into drinking and smking to fill it up,bt those are juz temporary...haix i really dono what to do...feeling so not me nw,dae pass dae,nite pass nite...its really not mi sia....

Anyway come across this song and really like the song tune n lyris..Share with you guys....

Afterschool-Because of you

ROMANIZATION
Ajikdo na geudaereul ijji mothae
I’ll never forget, boy, I’ll never forget, boy

He eojinji beolsseo myeot nyeoni jinatneunji molla
Geudae saenggak manhamyeon jakku nunmul man heulleo
Oneul ttara wae geureohke niga bogo peulkka
Chang bakkwi bissoriga nae mameul heundeureo nwa

Sarang haji malgeol geuraesseo jeong juji malgeol geuraesseo
Butjapji malgeol geuraesseo wae ireohke na honja apa
Sarang haji malgeol geuraesseo jeong juji malgeol geuraesseo
Butjapji malgeol geuraesseo wae ireohke na honja apa

Nan hangsang neomanwi jang miga dwiryeodeon nae mameul ani
Ije jogaknan sarangwi machim pyoga dwaetdaneun geol
Nunmuri millyeowa memareun ibsuri jeojeo
Ije eotteokhae geudael ijeulsu eobseo

Neo ttaemune manhido ureosseo, maeil bam nan
Neo ttaemune manhido useosseo, geudae ttaemune
Neo ttaemune sarangeul mideosseo, oh boy
Neo ttaemune, neo ttaemune, moduda ilheosseo

Jeongmal dap dap daphae, gap, gap, gaphae
Mak mak makhae, neo eobtneun sesangi
Nae malmameul sshibeo nohgo jajonsim jit balba nohgo
Nae mameul jjijeo nohgo wae nareul tteonaga

Geunaldo biga wasseotji hanchameul geudaen
Mareobshi nareul bara bogiman haesseo
Heundeulli neun nunbitgwa aesseo jitneun eosaekhan
Misoga ibyeoreul yaegi haejweo

Sarang haji malgeol geuraesseo jeongjuji malgeol geuraesseo
Butjapji malgeol geuraesseo wae ireohke na honja apa
Sarang haji malgeol geuraesseo jeongjuji malgeol geuraesseo
Butjapji malgeol geuraesseo wae ireohke na honja apa

Nabogo tteonarago hal ttaen eonjego tteonan danikka eojjeogo
Michin saram chwigeup manhae jeongmal himdeureo boy, slow down
Amureon maldo mothan chae ureo, cuz I want to stay next to you
My love is true, wanna go back to when I was with you

Neo ttaemune manhido ureosseo, maeil bam nan
Neo ttaemune manhido useosseo, geudae ttaemune
Neo ttaemune sarangeul mideosseo, oh boy
Neo ttaemune, neo ttaemune, moduda ilheosseo

Jeongmal dap dap daphae, gap, gap, gaphae
Mak mak makhae, neo eobtneun sesangi
Nae malmameul sshibeo nohgo jajonsim jit balba nohgo
Nae mameul jjijeo nohgo wae nareul tteonaga

I miss you, I need you
Kkum sogeseon ajikdo I’m with you
I miss you, I need you
Shiganeul dwi deollyeo wanna kiss you again, my boy

Mami neomu apeunde gyeondigi
Gwiro unde neoneun eodiseon mweol hani, na ureosseo cham manhi
Neo eobshin nan mossareo
Naegero dorawajweo nal tteonagajima

Neo ttaemune manhido ureosseo, yeah
Neo ttaemune manhido useosseo, manhido useosseo nan
Neo ttaemune sarangeul mideosseo, oh yeah
Neo ttaemune, neo ttaemune, moduda ilheosseo, neo ttaemune na

Jeongmal dap dap daphae, gap, gap, gaphae
Mak mak makhae, neo eobtneun sesangi
Nae malmameul sshibeo nohgo jajonsim jit balba nohgo
Nae mameul jjijeo nohgo wae nareul tteonaga

TRANSLATION

I… still… can’t… get over you
I never forget…
Boy I never forget…. boy

Can’t remember how many years it has been since we broke up
But I cry every time when I think about you
Why I’m so eager to see you today?
The sound of rain droplets leaves my heart shaken up.

I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?
I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?

I tried to be your only girl
And did you ever understood my heart?
Now it became the compass
Of broken love
Tears are flowing down
And soaks the dry lips
Oh what should I do,
Now I can’t erase you out of my mind

I cried a lot because of you (I cried every night~)
I laughed a lot because of you (Because of you)
I believed in the love because of you (Wooh boy~)
I’ve lost everything because of you
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

It also rained on that day
You’ve stared at me wordlessly
You’ve stared at nothing else but me
Those trembling gazes,
And the awkwardly forced smile
Speaks of our separation.

I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?
I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?

You’ve told me to leave
And the moment leave
You treat me as if I’m insane
It’s just too hard (boy slow down)
Then I cry silently and wordlessly
Cause I want to stay next to u
My luv is true, wanna go back 2 when I was with u

I cried a lot because of you (I cried every night~)
I laughed a lot because of you (Because of you)
I believed in the love because of you (Wooh boy~)
I’ve lost everything because of you
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

I miss u… I need u…
Even in my dreams I’m wit u..
I miss u… I need u…
Rewind back the time
I wanna kiss u again ma boy…
My heart aches
It’s too much to bear
And where are you? (I cried a lot)
Can’t live without you
Please come back to me
And stay with me

I cried a lot because of you (Yeah~)
I laughed a lot because of you (I laughed a lot~)
I believed in the love because of you (Oooh-Yeah~)
I’ve lost everything because of you (Because of you~)
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

♥ 1:11 AM

HOHO I AM BAC POSTING!!!!!!!!

Juz having de thinking of tis sentence "WHAT IS PAST IS PAST"

Mayb i over confidence abt my bball skill as i todae doing my "exercise"(bball) we plying a match wif jason and i noe jason skill is gd bt i don expect his fren to be very pro or shuld i put juz normal and our team mi n hing ask 1 more tall(jump can pull ring) person join us and i dam confidence sure win...though ACC de ring is abit low and i nt used to it due to too long didn ply dere aft my hand dislocated we ply and their speed is fast for mi NW and when i guard them. . .

A phobia in my heart activated and i was lik fking nub and coward and afraid due to de injury of my hand!!!!!!!! GOD DAM IT i am REALLY REALLY sad abt my hand dislocating 4 time and i noe bball is a NO! for my sport/hobby...

Mayb some of u guys will juz confront mi saeing tt its juz a sport can chose others,hands is more impt den anything lik a sport...

READERS! I believe tt u all did watch drama b4 lik MY MVP Valentine...as ppl sae life is juz lik a drama which i agree! why de actor injure still wan force himself to ply de match and wanted to win its becos of de effort he put into de sport,de sprit,de interest and de love in de sport which cant stop him from risking to ply a wonderful match!

De sentence really gib mi de description of my life...my fame from bball,game.My healthy and strong body.My love experience.My mistake made last time.ETC... are all GONE!!!!!! Wad i shuld face is tt i am no longer lik lastime,no longer some1 tt can judge any1 bball skill bt to remain as a coward and useless 1 handed bballer...I shuld learn to face FACTS from nw on mayb i am really too naive....

♥ 10:05 PM

BOO!!!!!!!! I am back posting again!!!!!!!
Sorry for not updating as i am very lazy to login X_X bt juz so suddenly wanted to post something lolz

Recently dono isit due to i too free or my brain suddenly want reverse time...i suddenly recall those memories i had b4...no doubt its a gd want or bad want all suddenly come back to my mind a little by a little...haix...mayb after li jia told mi abt their dicussion abt mi den i start to think of it ba...

Another issue come across my mind is tt my FUTURE!!! Tt dae when my cousin on de way to jalan bahar for his ns report i asked him abt wad he gg to do aft ns life,he reply mi as though he ard plan for his future...tis few daes tot of wad i want in my life next time lik for e.g my wedding ceremony,car,hus,etc... i noe its abit too early for many of u all will think bt to mi its nt early anymore...a person reached 18 muz start to plan for their future already,mayb nt a full plan or a plan tt u muz go n do bt briefly a plan so when steping into de society u won get loss of wad to do next... i really thinkin wad can i do for my future so my family will haf a beta living and also i can fulfill my plan of things i wan in my life time...

Relationship issue to mi i can onli sae i am nt ready yet even for a crush...For nw i appreciate my fren around mi as i really glan i haf such a bunch of wonderful frens around mi...I dono shuld i ddecribe tis as phobia or recovering state becos i really cant imagine of mi hafing another crush wif another gal nw!!! Of cos nt due to my homos changed and become gay bt its de confidence of accepting a start of relationship with some1 i admire...

I know i can persuade ppl of wad to do in life so nt to get sad over with bt if its bac to myself i am juz lik a tortise so coward lik dono wad...i cant denied de fact tt i am scare of rejection/failure...so i guess holidays and working will kip mi from all this mind issue... Sorry to those i cant meet up with and go out with...

♥ 12:53 AM

Lolx i think some ppl wait for my update till wan vomit blood le Lolx ok i shall update~!!

Hmm recently kip skip classes and i guess my warning letter is coming~ Lolz bt i decided aft my chalet i shall really seriously study cos i don wan waste my time at ite and i still wan progress to poly de !!!

My audi fam is bac ~ChaPuKa~ and leaving my cousin to b de fam ldr as i think he really gt de initiative to built bac de guild and we of cos chiong lik mad and i aim to b lvl 36(PRO) b4 my b'dae =) get to noe a audi gf and she is really fierce and funni hahax interesting person =)

Recently i gt an incident which make mi abit pissed cos i being hate by some1 i don expected LOLX i mean i don care if he nw still hate mi anot bt i honour my words tt i said tt time cos i don c any point of help and any wrong i said tt...if he gt treat mi juz as a normal fren he won hate mi juz cos of tt words and sry to say...i don expect my fren to hate mi juz by my word cos nt happi abt my word juz sae! no nid ply childish act wif mi...cos nt saeing i veri old bt i am nt pri sch kids and i cherish every fren i gt even a hi bye fren,cos dere is a saeing in chinese 多一个朋友，好过多一个敌人。Meaning hafing 1 more fren is beta den hafing 1 more enemy.U wan hate ppl don expect ppl to lik u,tts a sentence i learn from my meimei which i learned something...sooo conclusion is....even i loss tis "fren" i gt others,my close fren although all nt in ite bt at least i gt...and to him our trend of tokin and thinkin is different so it dosen't matter HAHAX! I won b affected juz cos of tis childish thing lalalax...

My chalet is coming!!!! Tmr it will BE!!!!! WAHAHAHAX cant wait to see wad ppl will gib mi espcially li jia secret present which really make my heart itchy and urge to noe wad it is!!! It had been awhile since i last gt surprises...I juz hope my chalet will b a memorable and fun dae XD

JA NE!!!! ^^

♥ 5:07 AM

LOLX hope still haf readers in tis blog Lolx...

This few daes hapen alot of things..i shall nt mention cos its really quite alot and of cos i try to solve it myself and also help to solve some frens prob bt don think my advice is enuff....or shuld i sae i can onli help verberly(spelling shuld b wrong)

This few daes i keep haf this thinkin of whether my advice or comment really help or ppl who i speak to tak it as nth...i am a person that don have confidence and nt really some1 wif leadership thats why i don really organize things or tak de 1st move in wadever event...some sae my planing for event is good bt i don think so at all...bt i realise wadever i told my frens they think its logical and reasonable which did really increase my confidence...as i am a person with low confidence i hope ppl will prove mi wrong by using more reasonable things or solution to shoot mi bac bt untill now i onli kena shoot till silent is by very no link words...i wonder if my thinkin is wrong that instead i shuld learn to b more confidence and haf de leadership to become a person that can solve ppl problem by gibing ideal and b a advisor...

This few weeks i also find out love is very funni,scary,selfish,nobel,hurtful,sad,happy,etc... love actually can includes alot of emotion and feeling as love is also = feeling...wadever it is i onli hope to share my opinion is that no matter wad happen to de person tt is de main lead(当局者） in de love event,even they share with u their sadness or irratated things,if u r juz de outsider（旁观者）u shuld nt interfer their prob bt onli gib advise and not action cos its juz lik did u c any califare help de main lead in a drama to solve de love prob? no right? so its de same and even we help and go into de situation,wad rights do we haf to interfere,if its frens u haf no blood related bt if its family members den is another point already,bt even wan help also help in a way nt to hurt any ppl cos love is uncontrolable so how can u treat de person that in love as a bad person...no matter wad they done to show their love is also due to cant controlled(for some) so dear readers,if possible,if help in ppl relationship problem try not to hurt any1 cos they are innocent also,try to think in their shoes to make a win win solution or any solution to reduce de damage to de lowest... cheers !! XD

^^ Abvove coment does not link to ppl that is a bastard or bitch bt onli apply to ppl who are serious in their fate.... ja ne!

♥ 12:47 AM

Hey YO!!! Todae go work den very relax!! 1st time sia den haf breakfast+lunch and guys guess wad?MIXED RICE $7 WTF!!! I haf chicken tight,prawn and pork chop jiu so ex liao really don dare go eat le!!! T_T

Den hing come find mi and accompany mi for 1 n 1/2hr untill i off from work...cos he kena pang seh by his fren Lolz...Den intend to go cycle so cor up kiat n yong sheng den go met my mum at cp to check abt my mio plan and YEAH i can renew de plan at de same time tak a new fone ^^!!! bt... didn decide wad fone to tak so we go off and bac hm eat den cor kiat till my fone gg angry finally he cor mi bac so met him and off to seletar reservoir to slack and yong sheng waited us at seletar camp dere...

Arrived dere and woo lots of car,mitshibishi,civic and roadster gang so chio la!!Aft tt kiat sae wan use toilet so we went to yishun den aft tt go ard yishun to cycle and slack untill kiat nid to go off so we cycle bac sk...kena dog chase LOLX bt manage to escaped from them PHEW!!!Untill jalan kayu dere we saw some kids riding those lj bike(use carboard to make till lik motor cycle) den actually i still cycling den hing suggest to chiong aft them when they pass us so i suggest to slow down and wait for them b4 we chiong and we all adjust our gear to de highest and wait them and indeed they chiong over us lik very zai lik tt den mi gib hing eye cntact and we...CHIONG AR!!!!!!!! untill half way we slack cos quite far hw we noe they chiong bac den hing gib up cos tired and i insist to chiong so kip cycle till cant c them and wait for hing n kiat...SONG AR!!! They guai lan us kip horn..CB end up also loss step wad sio LOLX...Aft tt send kiat hm and hing eat at de coffee shop and we haf drinks and saw them again LOLX they sending a gal bac punggol HAHAX!!!

Tmr i dono gt energy work mah sia think tonite ton liao haix....Yong sheng show mi a gal plunk and i was lik..KAWAYI!!!!!!!! DAM IT!!!! SO CUUUTEEEEE TO MI!!!!!!!!!! ^_^
hahax hope gt link with her XP so i shall stop here.... hehex...

♥ 5:32 AM